masyado nang matagal kung ngayon ko palang ito ibblog. Not to gain sympathy or whatever. hinintay ko lang yung tamang timing sa sarili ko to blog about it. which might mean na yeah, naka move on na ko.

I don’t wanna go on to the details on what has happened on that fateful sunday morning. Andaming nagbago, it took awhile for me to finally eat it all up and let the pain of reality sink in. whoa. parang syota lang. pero masakit talaga. kasi kasalanan ko naman talaga. Nikon somehow represented a new tintin, after school, and the possibilities of a new yet expensive hobby. tas ayun, nasira dahil sa katangahan ko. naiyak ako nun nung nalaman ko na hindi ko na sya maibabalik sa dati, and it was a painful lesson to be learned.

hindi ito katulad dati na pag may bagsak ako, e ire-re enroll ko lang yung subject the next term, or the feasib incident wherein i have my contingency plans. Nikon was different. Hindi biro yung mga sacrifices ko para dun. even until now, I couldn’t imagine on how did I come up with such budget for a seemingly expensive hobby. that was one of the hardest blows: damage control.

when i got nikon, I immediately drew a different picture of what I have in mind, beyond of what I think I wanted. pero nawala nang bigla lahat yun.I asked myself,  If I really wanted nikon, on which I sacrificed so much for, why did I let this happen? People around me knew how i loved nikon so much. Nikon D40 is an old model really, and i had the chance to pick up newer models back then, pero pinili ko parin ang D40, kasi it matched my beginner skills. wala pa akong balak maging pro nun, all i wanted was to learn to take better pictures far beyond what a digicam would do, kahit na alam ko, some digicams can do so much better. e kasi naman diba, nasa kumukuha yan eh. malay ko ba sa digicam. ayaw ko talaga nun.

I will definitely miss my nikon. at sa bawat slr na nakikita ko, mapa pentax or canon pa yan, it would still remind me of my baby.It might take a while before I begin to take a good look at my last shots. moved on na, pero it won’t help kung palagi kong makikita yung mga masasayang araw namin.

if chance(time+money) would permit, bibili ulit siguro ako, ewan ko. bahala na. I would still remember the day nung nakuha ko sya, the excitement.  sabihin na natin na kung sakaling makabili ako, it would be different na. call me materialistic, nah. wala akong pakialam. sa kabila nang lahat ng nangyari, isa lang ang natandaan ko:

Nikon has taught me more, aside from lessons in photography and traveling.

goodnight baby.